3 growing families!

This last week has been so exciting for our Little Angel Adoption family...3 families met and brought home their baby daughters...oh, it was so beautiful to see their pictures on Facebook...it brings such hope to all of us waiting and a bit of bitter sweetness to those that have been waiting quite awhile for their turn.

I'm hanging on to the hope that there's a baby girl for us...the process of inducing lactation has been hard on my body & mind as i'm taking enough progesterone to make my body think i'm pregnant so my body looks like i'm pregnant...i've gained weight - even my arms are fatty now..which i'm not totally horrified by because when i do start breastfeeding the weight will come off but sometimes i think oh my, there better be a baby at the end of all of this! I am experiencing lots of mood swings which i hate...having 2 boys to take care of requires that i have all my faculties about me. So basically, feeling crazy like when pregnant but i have no baby in me. This is where strength and perserverance comes in handy...just keeping my eye on the goal and having educated faith that this is all for a reason.

During the Wait

Waiting is a part of adoption...it's a chance to practice one's endurance and one's faith. You don't know what child is out there waiting, but you have faith that there is one. You don't know when you'll get the call, but you know there will be a call. While waiting and preparing my body for breastfeeding, i've been busy with Thomas who got Mono. Doctors said it was tonsilitis but when he wasn't getting better we went to the hospital for some blood work because his spleen was swollen and it was a mono diagnosis. Me Greg and Thomas and Andrey had come up with a list of fun summer daily trips we were going to make. I had a plan so we'd have a summer filled with joyful experiences. Well, a huge lesson - life often times has other plans and all at once i was housebound with a sick and often times combative child. He's better but spleen still swollen...dr. said no physical activity for 4 weeks...a spleen can rupture and one can die from that. Talk about anxiety!! I've been hovering around him trying to protect him from possible falls or punches from his brother. Ah, this was not my summer plan but i'm adjusting and enduring. I have a nice babysitter for andrey to take him out once or twice a week so he's not bored and his Uncle Jon has been running him around too. I'm enduring and being faithful that these circumstances will change soon. School starts in the middle of august and life will change again. I think once you accept that life is full of suprises (some wonderful some not) that life is so much easier to live because you expect change. That's what i want to teach my boys. So while i'm waiting, i'm preparing for our 3rd child...the milk is there, the crib is up, the girl clothes are washed and hung...just waiting for that very important call that someone has chosen us.